So I don't feel like writing about today's happenings cause there's kinda alot. Maybe another day, another time. I wish to reflect on a few things. Firstly, I've a found a show that I can very much relate to myself and the people around me. Well, that show's name is how I met your mother. So yeah, most of you should have heard about that show, if you haven't heard of it before, where have you been?? And I'm trying to find my footing in life, thinking what do I want in life, who am I really but then it hits me. Having a goal is okay.. Achieving is a whole different thing but it's still possible. But, realising yourself is a lifetime's journey. Cause at times of uncertainty you never really figure out is this who you wanna be? At the age of eighteen I looked to realise myself but actually I don't need to bother about realising cause my subconsience is what I really am and that's what I've come to believe. Example, sometimes someone asks you a question that give you a quick jolt and you answer the question with the first thing that comes to your mind. Don't need much thinking cause that's what you want. Someone hits you on the back and you just swing a punch at him/her without a moments hesitation. That's how you really react. The things you say and do are what you really are. No point in looking elsewhere thinking what you want and who you are. All you need to is let your heart tell you what to do, don't bother thinking hard. So just a little shoutout to my good friends.. I know you guys will be reading this, I know all the comments you guys made but, it's my decision to choose whom I wish to like or dislike. Your comments are just your point of view of her which I do appreciate but after what I've been through body and beauty is just on the outside it's just a mask to cover their true attitude, character and heart. What I want is character and heart.. And I think I've found it.
Sometimes I feel
Like I wanna leave this place for good
Under the ground
I'll live down there without a sound
And never hear
These hissing voices all the same
I'll disappear
Cause living makes me feel ashamed
I must believe
There's more above us and below
I must believe
Stranded with this bitch called hope
It keeps me here
When all I wanna do is go
It keeps me here
When all I wanna do is disappear
